I’m working hard to just get back to the person I used to be.

I haven’t written a text post in what seems like forever and I would put it on my main accounts but I would probably loose followers for being a moany bitch so yeah.
Basically I hate school at the moment, just everything about it which isn’t helped by the exams.
I have also discovered I have a shit personality and obviously seen as boring to the majority of the people I know. I just want to bloody change schools I’m serious, or move to another country or anything just to get away. Things have changed and I hate it. I hate being the one who has to walk up to people to get them to talk to me when I know I bore them anyway, why can’t I be fun and interesting. Yup no one wants to know me anymore it’s obvious. Lol yeah and now you probably think of me as self absorbed and all that shit which is probably true but i just want something to make sense for once, why do I always feel like this I’m just so fucking dull and awkward. Yeah and I get it now I pick out things in other people a hell of a lot to make myself feel better so I guess I’m a bitch too. Plus I can never think of things to say so just end up bringing Upthings to bitch about. I guess this will just be one of those nights where I sit up all night  in my bed and think about bloody everything. And my mum is too stressed at the moment to even care, age gets home late then goes to bed what happened to our late night chats? I guess I have to deal with stuff myself now